Monday, May 4, 2009

Cruise to Cozumel







Fun long weekend cruise from Galveston to Cozumel to celebrate a friend's 40th birthday. Lots of reading, relaxing and sun! No, I don't have the swine flu. I was barely in Mexico (just long enough to walk to the snorkel boat) and nowhere near Mexico City. It was fun to wear a hat because I wanted to, not because I had to cover my bald head. I enjoyed snorkeling in the warm water and saw a barracuda up close and personal. The reefs were still partially covered in sand, due to Hurricane Ike, but I saw a lot of beautiful fish. Austin stayed home and took care of the kids. It's good to be home.

Friday, April 17, 2009

It's Been A While

I've been neglecting the blog lately. Since finishing chemo I don't feel like I have as much to say. Physically I am still tired and not sleeping well. I feel like I need a nap every day and that's just not realistic. I do rest when I can and have also been reading a lot more than usual. Emotionally I am more anxious than ever, wondering if the cancer is truly gone or when/if it will reappear. Friends who have been through this tell me the first year of waiting is the worst and it gets easier. This past month has been a transitional time. I went back to my regular 3 day work schedule the first week in March. The kids are back to after school care. Nathan started Little League. Amanda's friend Nina has been spending more time with us. Austin and I are planning our 16th wedding anniversary. We had a great Easter. I've been down to the beach with friends and family, which has been fabulous! The surgery to remove my port was quick and painless. I got the stitches out last week. I'm preparing for a vacation to the sun and have been having foob related swimsuit issues - they just don't look right, but as long as they stay secured in the suit nobody will even know. Life is good!

Monday, March 2, 2009

Stupid Cancer

This is the new t-shirt I bought at the conference. I saw another really good one that said, "YES, THESE ARE FAKE, THE REAL ONES TRIED TO KILL ME". I should have purchased it, but then again, do I really want people staring? Not so much.

Dallas Conference


Here I am with the Seattle girls in Dallas at the Young Survival Coalition's National Conference. It was a great weekend and I am so glad I went. Everyone was in a different phase of treatment, recovery and reconstruction. It was very emotional for me, everywhere I looked there was a young woman going through what I have been through. I gained a lot of new information and met many other women with triple negative. One of the women in our group is triple negative and three years out, so that is encouraging! We received medical updates from some of the nation's top oncologists, heard a very motivational speaker talk about "Embracing Life Through and After Cancer", explored exhibits and had plenty of time for Q&A, networking and relaxing. My favorite classes were: "Breast Cancer Reconstruction Options", "Raising Healthy Children when a Parent has Cancer" and "Triple Negative News You Can Use". There are lots of targeted drug therapies in the works for triple negative, especially a drug called Avastin, which I will ask my oncologist about. We had receptions each night, went out for a delicious Tex-Mex dinner on Friday and dressed up for dinner on Saturday. I am part of the Seattle group, but have only been to one meeting because it's the same night as Girl Scouts. I feel like I've bonded with these women now and really look forward to participating more during the summer. What an incredibly strong, inspiring, real group of women. Thank you to my friend Andrea for connecting me to the Seattle YSC leader when I was first diagnosed.

On Deck for the Cure

Kristen and Brett went on a Carnival cruise recently. One of their activities was "On Deck for the Cure", sponsored by Komen and Carnival. They, along with Brett's family, participated in my honor. Very cool!

Tuesday, February 24, 2009

Survivorship

I had an appointment with my oncologist today. We talked a lot about "survivorship" or life after breast cancer treatment ends. He is writing up a summary of the treatment I received and coordinating follow up with my surgeons and family doctor. For the next year I will see my oncologist every three months for exams and blood work. He said if a recurrence happens 80% of the time it is found by the woman, so we talked about how closely I need to pay attention to how I'm feeling. He said he is not expecting a recurrence, but there is a 25% chance. I am afraid and thankful at the same time. Even though all of the breast tissue is gone sometimes the cancer can come back near the scars. I think that's weird. So, I need to continue to do breast exams, even though I have no breasts. On that note, here is a shout out to all of the ladies out there to check out www.feelyourboobies.com. It is a GREAT campaign! He doesn't feel that I will suffer any long-term toxic effects from the chemo and said my heart should be fine, considering that the amount of Adriamycin I received was safe. He gave me marching orders to get in shape and he was happy to hear that I am serious about the 5k in June. He is fully expecting the blood clot to go away after my port is removed.

Breast Cancer Survivors: Life After the Treatments End
By Gina Shaw MD
The breast cancer treatments are over. Now what? Here's how to return to your "new normal." Life after breast cancer means returning to some familiar things and also making some new choices. The song says "It ain't over 'til it's over," but when you've had breast cancer, you discover that it's not even over when it's over. After a marathon of breast cancer diagnosis and treatment that may last a year or more, you can hardly wait to get back to a normal life again. But the day of your last chemotherapy infusion doesn't mark the end of your journey with breast cancer. Instead, you're about to embark on another leg of the trip. This one is all about adjusting to life as a breast cancer survivor. In many ways, it will be a lot like the life you had before, but in other ways, it will be very different. Call it your "new normal." From your relationships with your family and your spouse to eating habits and exercise, breast cancer will change your life in ways that last well after treatment ends. How do you fight lingering fatigue? What should you do to help prevent a breast cancer recurrence? How do you get back into a normal routine? These are just a few of the questions that may nag at you as you make the transition from breast cancer treatment to breast cancer survival. "Chemobrain" and Other After-Effects: You watched the last dose of chemotherapy dripped from the IV into your veins six months ago. Your hair has really started to grow back. Maybe it's curly where it once was straight, or a lot grayer than before, but it's hair. You have eyebrows again. So why are you still so tired? When are you going to feel like you again? "Your body has just been through an enormous assault, and recovery is a huge thing. You're not going to just bounce back right away," says oncologist Marisa Weiss, MD, founder of Breastcancer.org and the author of Living Beyond Breast Cancer. "You've been hit while you're down so many times: with surgery and anesthesia, perhaps with multiple cycles of chemotherapy, perhaps with radiation."Two of the biggest hurdles women with breast cancer face post-treatment are fatigue resulting from chemotherapy and/or the accumulated effects of other treatments, and a phenomenon some women have dubbed "chemobrain" -- mental changes such as memory deficits and the inability to focus. If you tried, you probably couldn't pick two more frustrating and troubling side effects for women handling busy lives, managing careers, and caring for families."You expect them to go away as soon as treatment ends, and they don't," says Mary McCabe, RN, director of the Cancer Survivorship program at Memorial Sloan-Kettering Cancer Center in New York. That such a program as McCabe's exists is a testament to the changing nature of what it means to have cancer. Women with breast cancer, like other people with a cancer diagnosis, are now surviving for so much longer, and in such large numbers, that some hospitals are opening entire departments devoted to survivorship. How long after breast cancer treatment ends can you expect fatigue, "chemobrain," and other post-treatment side effects to persist? Everyone is different, of course, but as a general rule of thumb, Weiss tells her patients to expect a recovery period about the same time from your first "cancer scare" moment to the date of your last treatment. So if you found a lump or had a suspicious mammogram in April, and had your last radiation treatment in December, it may be August or September of the following year before you reach your "new normal." "Even then, that doesn't mean that you're fully back to yourself again, but by then you should have a sense of where you're going to be, what your energy level will be, and so on," says Weiss. Breast cancer survivorship, Weiss observes, is a marathon, not a sprint. That means learning to handle the symptoms that stick around after treatment ends, says Sloan-Kettering's McCabe, by using those adaptive strategies you learned while on chemotherapy or recovering from surgery. "You need to continue to have planned periods of rest, and think about what times in the day and after what activities you tend to find yourself most tired," she says. A Chance to Make Some Life Choices: Make sure your family and your coworkers understand that just because treatment is over, that doesn't mean that you're going to be able to jump right back into running the carpool, coaching soccer, and traveling to conferences a week out of every month. "Everyone's ready for treatment to be over, not just you, and although they've been supportive, your friends and family may be expecting you to spring back right away," says McCabe. "It's an education process. They need to understand that when the therapy stops, that doesn't mean that the effects of the therapy stop immediately." Manage your expectations, urges Weiss. "Decrease the stress and the pressure on you in whatever ways you can. There are a lot of decisions you can make to take charge of how your life goes while you're in this recovery process." Decide which of those things are really important to you and which ones don't matter quite as much. Let the less-important ones slide or find someone else to do them. Gina Shaw is a medical writer who was treated for breast cancer in 2004, and now calls herself a "joyful breast cancer survivor."

Saturday, February 21, 2009

Yahoo! I'm Done!


We went to Salty's at Redondo to celebrate the end of my chemo. This was one of the kids' first "fancy" (a step up from Red Robin) dinners, so it was fun to dress up. My mom gave me a beautiful necklace that belonged to my Gram. I feel close to her when I wear it. It feels so good to be done with chemo. I have five more days of Xeloda and then that is it! Yahoo!!! I am heading to Dallas next weekend for the national Young Survival Coalition conference. This organization is for women diagnosed with breast cancer under the age of 45. There are 15 women from the Seattle chapter attending, so it should be a lot of fun. There are several classes about triple negative, which is the main reason I'm going. I'm looking forward to it.